Caitilady

like this.

It's not like I love him, cause I don't. At all. But I really wanted things to work out. So now he's gonna break up with me? Great. The fact that I can't stop him is the only reason I find myself crying, cause I actually thought that we could last another month. GREAT FUCKING GREAT. now we're going to bed mad, over the fucking stupidest thing ever. Apparently i'm not a good girlfriend, and I don't show that I like him enough.

He's my best friend, and I wish he knew that he makes me the happiest girl alive when I'm with them. Fuck.
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
FUCK.


Sorry. I couldn't write this where he could find it.

I'm gonna make a comic. and it's gonna be serious.
and I'm gonna have to sneak over al's house to borrow tablet&photoshop to line my comic.
and this comic is going to be from my point of veiw.
except the thought of drawing myself is murderous, and will bring my non-existent self-esteem farther down, I'll use someone else's face.
lol.
Fml.

How much I've changed in a few months.
I wear wayyy too much makeup now.
I actually like boyss
I talk on the phone
I text!
I care about what I'm wearing
I've become  more self-conscious, whilst not giving a damn what people think at the same time.
I want people to love me
I want someone to love.
I want to lose weight
Lots of weight.
And I want to dye my hair
I say FML wayy too much (p.s. LOLOLOL>>>>>fmylife.com)
And I kinda hate where I am in my life.

I have 1,000 views?!

when did that happen.
Seriously.
I have like no deviations or anything interesting.
What the heck are you people looking at.

It kinda scared me.

Maybe I should go draw something to be happy about this.
Knowing me I'll give it to
And she'll color it.
He'll color it?


And it'll be awesum yo.

I'm wiff leela.

This is my first journal. HHMMM


anyway, we are stalking people on  stickam. WHUT I DIDN'T SAY THAT.


and I love her. and she loves me. and we love SKILLET.



Devin is out for a smoke break, and now he's going to die. D: